Sleepless Nights

Last night I couldn’t sleep at all. I woke up at two in the morning and just laid there and thought about my sweet boy. I thought about his little fingers, his tiny ears, his little lips, his nose, his eyelids, and tried to remember every little detail of his little body. Sometimes it hurts […]

Restore

‘I know you’re feeling like it’s falling apart and it can’t go on anymore But God is a God who knows how to heal so just give it up to the Lord And He will restore’ Although this song mostly talks to those who are struggling in their marriage, I love the chorus. Sometimes I […]

Day 29: Healing – Capture Your Grief

I have often described myself as a very deep wound. Every day it heals a little, but with every step forward – the scab pulls away and breaks open and starts to bleed again. Some days bleed more then others. But even after time, I’ll always have this deep scar.

Where’s My Happily Ever After?

Last week my husband and I worked on putting together some of the bedrooms in the upstairs part of our new house. One of which rooms was suppose to be Jonah’s nursery. When we moved into our house in August, everything that reminded me of being pregnant and having a baby – I had my […]

Getting To Jonah

Yesterday was a good, but still hard day. A Mass at my church was said in remembrance of Jonah and my whole family got together to honor him. The Mass was a beautiful Halloween Children’s Mass that was lead by students. It was the perfect service for him. At the same time, I still have […]

Day 25: #SayItOutLoud – Capture Your Grief

Nobody knows the pain I feel. Every day I am reminded of my pain. And this pain I feel is in other words my love for Jonah and his absence. This pain is defeating. I never knew I could love someone so much and I never knew my heart could hurt this bad. I should […]

Getting Out Of Bed

Getting out of bed is a pretty hard task for me. When I open my eyes to see a new day, I am reminded that this isn’t a dream. This is my real life. My life without Jonah. Luckily, I am also a ‘dog mom’ and my dogs are literally what gets me out of […]

Day 23: Jewelry – Capture Your Grief

My husband got me this beautiful necklace to remember Jonah and keep him close to my heart. He is such a good daddy. My sister-in-laws got me this beautiful ‘mommy ring’ to represent that I am still mommy even though my sweet boy is in heaven. They both are great mommies and have their own […]