Some days the weight of my past pulls me down and I can hardly push on. When I can only focus on my failures. My body failed me and I am so mad at it. It had one job and it failed. I did everything I was suppose to do, and it still failed. The […]
Last year I taught kindergarten and 1st grade at a catholic school about 20 minutes from my house. I loved teaching there because we could talk about our faith and relate everything that was happening to the work of God. Many of you know that I took this year off to stay home with Jonah […]
When things were good and November 4th was Delivery Day – not Dooms Day.
I haven’t been able to finish this project the last few days because I have had an extremely hard week. But I wanted to post this picture of my husband with the beautiful sunset from our cabin in the background. This picture was taken on the fourth of July this year. Before we knew about any […]
Last night I couldn’t sleep at all. I woke up at two in the morning and just laid there and thought about my sweet boy. I thought about his little fingers, his tiny ears, his little lips, his nose, his eyelids, and tried to remember every little detail of his little body. Sometimes it hurts […]
I have often described myself as a very deep wound. Every day it heals a little, but with every step forward – the scab pulls away and breaks open and starts to bleed again. Some days bleed more then others. But even after time, I’ll always have this deep scar.
Last week my husband and I worked on putting together some of the bedrooms in the upstairs part of our new house. One of which rooms was suppose to be Jonah’s nursery. When we moved into our house in August, everything that reminded me of being pregnant and having a baby – I had my […]
Yesterday was a good, but still hard day. A Mass at my church was said in remembrance of Jonah and my whole family got together to honor him. The Mass was a beautiful Halloween Children’s Mass that was lead by students. It was the perfect service for him. At the same time, I still have […]