Every passing year since Jonah’s death, the month of August rolls around and it somehow takes me to a different place. It takes me three years back. To a place full of sorrow, unknown and fears. It was a scary time in my life and a time I am not soon to forget. Looking back […]


Christmas has already come and gone so quickly. And it seemed so special this year, when we were all so sad last Christmas. Being pregnant (especially 29/30 weeks pregnant) around Christmas time brings a much greater joy to the holidays. I feel as though the last year and a half I have very much identified myself […]

28 Weeks – The Third Trimester

I can’t believe I am 28 weeks now. Which is very bittersweet since this when I was told Jonah’s heartbeat had stopped and he was delivered 28 weeks 1 day. Every day after is becoming a milestone for me. Thinking back to my pregnancy with Jonah makes me evermore thankful now… There is something to […]

Telling My Story – Speaking at a Pregnancy Loss Retreat

Last Saturday, I was asked to share my story for a Pregnancy Loss Retreat held at my church. It was such a healing and emotional day, but it was something I needed. I was able to tell my story to family, friends and strangers who were willing to open their hearts and listen to the […]

The Most Haunting Dreams

I have written before about how I go through periods of sleepless nights and nights where I’m completely exhausted and I all but fall asleep before my head hits the pillow. I also have periods of times where I have – well I can’t decide if they are nightmares or just dreams. Either way, they […]

One Brief Moment

The other day the sun was shining, but all I felt was darkness. Everything went to silence as I was getting ready for the day and Jonah’s song came on the radio. It brought me back to his burial. We played a song at his graveside as we watched family and friends release blue balloons […]