Introducing… Micah Rae Johnson February 2, 2015 at 7:36pm 5 lbs 4 oz – 18 inches The past four weeks have been a blur and I sometimes can’t believe what has all happened, BUT I have never been so happy (and tired!). Micah came 5 weeks early into this world and low and behold […]
I have often described myself as a very deep wound. Every day it heals a little, but with every step forward – the scab pulls away and breaks open and starts to bleed again. Some days bleed more then others. But even after time, I’ll always have this deep scar.
Nobody knows the pain I feel. Every day I am reminded of my pain. And this pain I feel is in other words my love for Jonah and his absence. This pain is defeating. I never knew I could love someone so much and I never knew my heart could hurt this bad. I should […]
My husband got me this beautiful necklace to remember Jonah and keep him close to my heart. He is such a good daddy. My sister-in-laws got me this beautiful ‘mommy ring’ to represent that I am still mommy even though my sweet boy is in heaven. They both are great mommies and have their own […]
Sometimes the most comforting words come from a book that I need to pick up more in my life. The most comforting words come from a few short chapters of this large book, but these short chapters speak volumes to me. The most comforting words come from my own personal bible, from the book of […]
Only 65 days ago I gave birth to Jonah. It feels like a lifetime ago and yet it feels like yesterday. Last night I told my husband that it felt as if I was living a dream and I just want to be woken up. I still feel like this is all just a bad […]
Jonah was born in late summer, but as the leaves are turning and the temperature is beginning to drop – I am finding that I am taking in more of nature’s beauty around me and seeing Jonah. But at the same time, I think about what fall was suppose to bring. I think about how […]
Today is Pregnancy and Infant Loss Remembrance Day and I have had Jonah’s candle lit all day long. It has been a gloomy day here, but his light shines brightly. It’s funny to think that just a few short months ago, I would have never thought about this day and that it would ever pertain […]